insomnia

Ever since i remember myself as a kid, i've always had a problem with sleep. I remember staying up all night and read, or just not being able to sleep. Insomnia? Call it what you want, but the story is that i just can't put my mind to rest easily, when i go to bed, no matter how tired i am. I can't get the few moments of tranquillity that actually put you to sleep.

I somehow learned to use this tendency of mine not being able to sleep at night throughout my life.

Later in my life i discovered how cool it was to watch the sunrise, so i did that as well. Listening to music all night and reading, or just having a drink with a friend and chat all night.

In University i passed most of my 52 subjects so far by studying the entire night before going to the exam. Same goes with my exams for going to university, both years.

In my AIESEC years I learned to work at night, when less people are around and i can have full control of the environment. it's both relaxing and efficient for me.

All in all through my life i have never had a stable program of sleeping and waking up hours. The result was that I can sleep 18 hours straight or go without sleep for 3 days easily. Or just sleep for 2 hours every 8. Or whatever.

I was hoping somehow that the army was my last opportunity in life to get used to have a standard sleeping and wake up schedule. I was wrong. Especially with guarding hours in the middle of the night, things got worse. Not that i didn't adapt. I did. But i adapted to an abnormal thing: learning how to sleep for 1 hour or two whenever i get the chance to, or just sleep for 2 hours, wake up for 3, and then sleep for another 1 before morning wake up call.

Lately things are even worse. For example the last few weeks, i feel tired, go to bed at 10, and end up sleeping at 2 or 3 am, with our wake up hour being at 6 in the morning. And most of the times i don't get the time to replace the sleep, cos we have like 40 degrees in GR in the summer and that doesn't make it easy to sleep in the afternoon in your spare time.

What next? My next opportunity is getting a regular schedule with my job after the army. Or just get used to it, over it and find more ways to enjoy it. And watch more sunrises.