joy and confusion

you know how it's like when you are happy but you don't exactly what you are happy about? this is the kind of situation i find myself in right now. of course i have a few things to be happy about: my first trip abroad after 10 months, meeting some friends, having a few interviews, booking my tickets for RHCP, Morissey, Nickelback and Blof at the pinkpop festival. That's a few things to smile about. and the fact that i have now booked all flights and am already packing (leaving to athens tmw) makes this feeling of joy more intense.

On the other hand there's a lot of uncertainty in mind about where I am going to end up professionally but also which part of the world i am gonna settle in, which is a goal for year 2006. finally have a home of my own. but well, they say "fate leads the willing and drags the unwilling", so for now i'd rather be happy, include myself in the willing make my own efforts and leave the rest to fate.

sounds like a fair deal.