i want it all, and i want it now

we are trapped in the age of choices, lifestyle, and postponed decisions.

the first stimuli we get from the world are marketing messages. they've stopped being anything like values, skills or attitudes. just things we would like to become. or buy. or pretend we are. or like. or try to like because other people do as well. whose fault is this? nobody's. the world is changing, and in some aspects of it it's changing fast. the question is, how equipped is everyone of us in order to face and handle all of it?

homo surrealis, that's what we have become, in a sense. i still can't balance between all these different things i would like to buy, do, experience in life, books i'd like to read, movies i'd like to watch, places i'd like to go to, concerts i'd like to attend, things i'd like to do with my friends, family. there's not enough time for all of that. i also cannot be sure that the profession i choose in the end will be the right one. why? because there is a wide choice. life is not what it used to be, life is a supermarket of choices. save for that we have forgotten that these choices are not actually a supermarket, they are for real and they are our life.

Anastasia was discussing the same issues a few days ago. truth be told, we don't see things much differently. we are responsible for our own fate, and choices. and we have to have a guideline and some orientation in our lives, made up of goals, values, aspirations, in order to know we have more chances to make the right decisions and move on. but my argument is, however strong minded you might be, there might be 1000 different paths to reach your goal in life. how would you know which one is the right one? and if the one chosen is a disaster, wouldn't it always make you think "what would have happened if you'd taken one of the other choices"

i don't believe our parents lived in an easier era though. maybe they had fewer choices to pick from, but life is equally difficult in all eras. cause the big questions remain the same: survival, success, love, family, search of happiness. but i think this abundance of choices today is really messing around with the human brain, and is more like a maze than a supermarket in the end. cause we have scrapped the possibility of choosing on the way, it's more painful. now we're just trying to figure out a way to have everything.

a lot of people are able to live through anything in the short term, but are struggling to answer the important questions in life in the long run. sometimes i feel i might be one of them. but most of the times i know i am not. i just don't have the answers yet. i know the questions i want to answer, and i keep chasing the answers around me. i know they're out there.

these are just grand excuses. or are they, really?