Sunday, October 31, 2004

Hoax fears

Sure enough, I haven't been to the dentist too many times since I was a kid. Apparently I have only two tooth inlays. Unfortunately I had to go to the dentist for some problem with one tooth, and I figured it was a good thing to do it before I reach the camp. So I went on Saturday, indeed feelign a bit preoccupied and basically scared on the thought I am going to the dentist. I went through aponeurosis, which turned out to be quite ok in the end, compared to all the freaky stories about dentists I have heard since my primary school years.I guess it's just accumulated fears of what your friends tell you to scare you when you are a kid...:p But the thought of a 26 year-old man being afraid of the dentist is a bit ridiculous although the man was me.

For the record, it all went fine :) and I am planning to go again this week.

Friday, October 29, 2004

Memories in boxes, memories in the trash?

One of the things (my obsessions date very long back in time) I 've been wanting to do for quite a while now was to clear out the things in the storage room we have at the basement at my parents' place. By the time I got to live here in Lamia again for a few weeks, I realised that I also needed to do that at home with all my old boxes. It's just amazing how once upon a time there were five of us living comfortably in this house, and nowadays, if a third person comes home, other than my parents, it's hard to fit anything anywhere. So the need was obvious, I had to get everyone on board and so my obsession came to reality, getting the four of us (parents and sister) in this procedure of clearing everything up.

It's shocking how many things I used to keep when I was younger. They range from receipts of things I bought, shows I attended, leaflets (a lot of which I actually never got to read), boarding passes, A LOT of AIESEC memorabilia (I have it filtered down to 'just' four boxes now), and of course clothes I no longer fit into, cassettes (= more than 200) I no longer listen to (there is no cassette player at my folks' place at the moment), letters sent to me and postcards, etc etc. Going through that and deciding to get rid of a lot of stuff is a painful but interesting experience. I found a lot of things, scribblings and notes that I no longer could remember what they were about and a lot of other objects that made me laugh or even get close to crying. In the end I even developped a theory about this entire process. I figured that you can't just do this every couple of years, go through all your old belongings, if your goal is to get rid of stuff and gain some extra space availability at home. You need to do it on a 10 year basis. This way the emotional attachment on alot of things has really gone away, and you can keep 'the most meaningful ones' if this phrase makes any sense at all.

In any case this was a very refreshing experience, and also there was alot of family teambuilding around it as I got everyone at home to do the same. Well, in the beginning they all hated me (esp. my sister, who was only visiting for the weekend and she found the house almost like having been hit by a tornado, filled with boxes and papers...) but in the end we all enjoyed giving our house a facelift...

Another conclusion/theory after these last few days: There's a lot of things that I use to keep in order to be reminded of past events, now they are very few and related to the memories I really wanna keep for a long time in life, not forgetting about the rest, but well, you have to free yourself from a lot of your past to move on to the future. Was nice revisiting all that in any case, feels good :) The memories never go to trash, no matter how many things reminding of them you throw to the trash bin.

Countdown

Well, this is countdown time I guess...10 more days till I join in the army...

Right now, lots of things on my mind, I guess too many to fit in a week's time or just a bit longer I guess...How to sort out my last needed assignment for university (it's just a matter of 'shut up and write!' at the stage where I am, but well...), spend some time with my familly, go to Athens and see some friends that I won't see in a while, sort out my luggage and needed exams before I get myself in the camp, tidy up all my student stuff in my parents' house, move my blog, get a an army-style haircut :-) etc etc. Lots of stuff probably, but I am not willing to quit any of them for now.
The only one thing that I don't wanna compromise is some peace of mind and just some time for myself to sort things out.
In some ways I am getting extremely impatient to finally get in the army. Probably because I wanna get it over with. But here's what a good friend of mine just wrote to me today about this:
'Here's the strange thing about the army: Before you go you feel a kind of awkwardness and impatience, to go and get it over with, during the military service you feel bored to death and wish time would pass in a faster pace to finally get out and be a creative person again, and when you are finally over with it and are out there working, you feel nostalgic about the relaxed times you had during your military service'
I guess I have to find out for myself, as everyone else. For the time being I can say I am probably the best prepared soldier ever. I have already read a book about the army in Greece, met with a couple of friends to ask them my questions, got a checklist from one of them of things I shouldn't forget to take with me, and also spoken several times to my uncle (a retired general). What more could I have done? Well, not much actually. Just looking fwd to finally being there and checking it out for myself.

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Hmmmmm

Ok, lets see if this is really gonna work! I hope this posting appears and I have my blog at dimitris.nomadlife.org !